I keep rushing, thinking, dreaming, and hoping for a new kind of joy. I want to give more, live more, and love more. I didn’t realize I had fallen under the current. It is not a simple task to regain footing once you get pushed over.
Time will tell if my recent efforts to make changes will have positive results. Yet, I think I may have made more mistakes along the way. There is still the little issue of not appearing as “open” or available. Apparently, I don’t seem as emotionally available for people to talk to me. This upsets me.
I’m a thinker and I guess I’m more in my head. It is very important to me that anyone that wants to talk to me feel like I’m being “present.”
This is me….talking to you….I’m here. I am very present.
I want anyone that talks to me to feel like I am listening and paying attention. No one wants to deal with someone who they feel doesn’t care and is not totally engaged – I get it.
We are all busy with our lives and careers, but still should not neglect people we care about or our friends. Don’t ever take people for granted because they will walk out of your life.